3/1 bummer

i'm on vacation today
i had 9 carryover vacation days from 2011
that i need to use before the end of March

i'm using all of these as stay-cation days
first 2 days i used in february
to clean the spare bedroom
and then moved Avery & Carver down there

my goal for today
was cleaning and organizing the laundry room
while Davis was at preschool
Lance and I were sorting and pitching

he left at 11a
to go signup Carver for swimteam party
and then pickup Davis at 11:30a

i went to walmart to get
cat food
storage bins
3M hooks

as i'm in the aisle
Lance calls
Davis had a seizure at school
ugh

in that moment i'm flooded with thoughts
Lance is talking
i'm asking details
my mind is racing as i'm listening and talking
i am thinking about his teachers
and how incredibly scary it is to witness a seizure
when you have no idea what to expect

i'm amazed by how unfrazzled i am
still standing in the walmart aisle
leisurely walking to checkout

seizures have become part of the fabric of our norm
when Lance called i wasn't expecting the seizure news
but yet i wasn't at all startled by it

i rejoice in Davis' safety
i'm so thankful for a caring school and staff
that were prepared to respond
i am glad that we had talked through
if/how to notify Carver if this ever happened
Carver was so proud to be in the nurses office
with Davis

so the laundry room is in the worse before better phase
i'm thankful i am on vacation today & tomorrow
so i can lay in bed this afternoon
typing this blog
while Davis lays beside me watching Toy Story

there is no fever
no obvious trigger for this seizure
but there is
the known risk of potentially more frequent seizures
because of no meds

no thought of changing course at this point
1 seizure every 3-4 weeks is manageable
especially when the trade-off
is getting to experience Davis' delightful true character
shining through
as the clouds of meds are clearing

#55
no idea which number will be the last
keep praying for Davis protection
and for peace for school staff

-tvz